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Daunting this is.
My webmaster advises me that people will want to know about
me.
I have no problem with the telling, there is just a lot to tell.
Sixty three years of life, accumulated in so many experiences.
Here are the pieces that have most profoundly brought me here, to all of you.
A 'celebrity' I am not, nor am I a scholar, I have a high
school education.
Life has been my greatest teacher, my experiences are my
diplomas.
Born in 1945, I now view this as a blessing.
Simpler times, no fast food, fewer people, less pollution,
manual typewriters.
My mother and father were married for 64 years.
Free spirits both, ahead of their time in many unique and
amazing ways.
My father drove his Harley Davidson to Chile and back, alone,
when he was 65 years old.
My mother stayed home with us children, she taught us to
cook, was involved in our school
activities, politics, and social programs.
She went to work when she was fifty and didn't retire until
she was seventy.
My father and mother traveled independently of each other
for the most of their life together.
She didn't like motorcycles and he didn't much like airplanes.
It never got in the way of their love and respect for each
other.
My childhood was happy, my parents were supportive and
loving.
They taught my brothers and I the importance of things like
responsibility and integrity.
It was extremely important to them for their children to
grow into productive human beings.
As with each of us, many of life's experiences were difficult.
Now I know my difficult journeys were the ones that taught
me the most.
I was an 'unwed mother' in 1967.
I gave my newborn baby boy up for adoption.
When the nurse took him from my arms that morning, I promised
him I would be back.
Societal conditioning told us we were bad girls and I believed
that dogma for many years.
I radically forgave myself 32 years later when my son & I
found each other.
It took an enormous amount of courage and resolve, but the
rewards far outweighed the pain.
I have been severely depressed, considered suicide at one
time in my twenties.
I burdened my body with far too much weight for the most
of 30 years, a workaholic, in unhappy
relationships, and carried around a lot of drama.
A personal bankruptcy taught me valuable lessons around money and fear.
Alcoholism in my family and osteoporosis rampant among the
women taught me the importance of educating myself and determining
my
own wellness or lack
of.
A smoker for thirty years, I quit 13 years ago, more amazing lessons around
health, honoring the
vessel and my ability to change about me what wasn't working.
Marriage, another pregnancy, taking me seven long years
to get pregnant with my daughter.
The whole time feeling this was my punishment from God for giving my baby
boy away.
I learned the excruciating results of depression around
this, experiencing the things that happen to the body, the
mind and the spirit when one loses
oneself
to it.
After twenty years of marriage, the journey through divorce, understanding
the responsibility of parenting.
My ex husband and I, remaining friends, nurturing our daughter through
a difficult transition, new beginnings, and more valuable lessons.
Thoreau said, "What lies before us and lies behind
us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
And when we bring what is within us out into the world, miracles happen."
This website is an accumulation of my body, mind, spirit
journey thus far.
I am far from calling it quits, in fact, life began anew for me at 60!
I believe we all have the power and opportunity to change our life.
To see things as we would have them be instead of how they are.
Focusing on what we want rather than what we have.
When we awaken to our higher possibilities, there is nothing that can
stand in our way.
I remind myself constantly to begin within.
When we align with our inner Self, our true potential begins
to manifest.
It took me until I was fifty years old to understand and
accept this universal truth.
To honor the Self is to be willing to think independently, to live
by our own mind, and to have the
courage of our own perceptions and judgments.
To honor the Self is to be willing to know not only what we think,
but what we feel, want, need, desire, suffer over, are frightened
or angered
by, and
most importantly, to honor and accept our right to experience such
feelings.
To honor Self is to be in love with our own life, in love with our
possibilities for growth and the experiencing , the living in joy
every minute.
I open this website to connect us to each other, all walks,
all countries, all peoples.
To learn from each other, to share with each other.
May my journey in some way, some manner, assist you in yours.
For at our core, we all are connected.
Peace.
~ Joan the Sexy Crone ~ |
